Ziza Craig

ziza-1

“How do you like to express your gifts?”
“The first thing that occurs to me is listening. I really appreciate hearing people’s stories and holding space to allow people to express themselves and show their true colors. I like creating a safe environment for people to be themselves. Sometimes that means going into the scary places.”
ziza-2
“I also like to express myself artistically. That’s something that has been dormant for awhile but recently has started to come back online and I’m excited about that. I’ve got a studio in the city and I’m gonna start painting again. In the meantime, I’ve been doing a lot of face painting, and henna, and body art, and I’m ready to go back to the canvases. I love doing portraits.”
ziza-3
“I also like moving my body and singing. I like singing with other people. I like singing in harmony. I like singing spiritual songs. Lately, I’ve been so inspired by Hamilton.”
ziza-4
“What’s one thing that has been a challenge for you and how has dealing with that inspired growth?”
“The first thing that comes to mind is depression. It lasted 10 years or so. It took over the course of my life to the point where that was my main focus. My trajectory was just about figuring out how to heal. Going from psychologist to psychologist and psychiatrist to psychiatrist and all the meds and ending up in a therapeutic boarding school for two months that was very progressive i.e. Abusive. That broke me down to the point where I didn’t want to live anymore but that ultimately led to my spiritual awakening. Really coming a greater sense of truth, love, purpose and gratitude. Before that experience I was really skeptical of all things spiritual. It’s also brought me into a community called Elevate. This year, 2016, has been parallel to the year I was in the boarding school. That was supposed to be a healing place, they even used a lot of similar conscious language as the Elevate community like ‘caring confrontation’ and ‘radical honesty’ but all of it was fear based and it was very cultish. There was inflammatory, derogatory language used at me and I soaked it up. When I left to go to the hospital because I was suicidal I severed all the bonds I had there. It was a backwards way to bond with people, but I had beared my soul wholeheartedly. I never fully healed from that severing until this year. Even though I had been in several communities since that time I had never fully been invested and showed myself. I stayed on the periphery. This year I started having flashbacks to that time which was weird because I thought I was over it. Then one day I was walking in Tilden park in Berkeley with a mentor who happened to be a psychologist and I told him about my flashbacks. I told him the story while we were hiking and the blood starting pumping and I had a huge cathartic release.”
ziza-5
“After that, I went back to where I was living, which was a three-week sublet with three women. I didn’t know any of them well and I didn’t intend to. They were making plans to go out and I was going to do my solo thing. Then one of them asked me if I wanted to go to a women’s circle and I said ‘absolutely’. I was able to share my process with these women and be super vulnerable, and held, and seen, and compassionately responded to. So the next day I had set up another AirBnb for two weeks. I was trying to live alone and control my environment and heal. But the next day on Facebook I got the ad for the two rooms opening in Elevate and it went right to my heart. I felt the type of fear you have to lean into. I went through the process and grace just guided me in. I honestly think that when you blow up perspective to the macro level time is non-linear. It’s all happening all the time. And this is a contract. I feel like I’m with myself back then communicating with myself about this full experience. From that unconscious community to this conscious one. From a place of fear to a place of love. From darkness to light. That transition has made me who I am and given me all the wisdom that I carry.” ziza-6

Dijon

October 30, 2016